Wajood

Fingers dipping in bottles of paints The three muses looking away Sitting modestly inside the frayed painting The fabric holding itself together bravely Holding on to the rusted nails in the four corners Chaar diwari Painted thirty years ago with a tree now missing. A cat decided to tear it down with its claws Ripping through the trunk and the fallen leaves Ek azaad rooh ki talaash mein ek patte ne apne maa se naata tod liya The stub of a finger can make a straight line Stub…stub…stubborn…born… How long will it take to heal me? The fissures are filling up with paints Massage your feet with coconut oil Such dry feet Do not walk bare foot on the grass The bacterium will enter through your cracked feet I walk on newspapers absorbing the spilled paints Acrylic and oil It hurts It heals “Har shaakh pe ullu baitha hai” A favourite line from a sher on the loop The men gather to revel in their shortcomings Pulling others down/sizing up They clamour to vie for the patriarch’s attention “anjaam-e-gulistaan kya hoga” The finger pauses The lines are fresh The paper is jammed Jammy jammies colours Squinting I try to squeeze out a kaleidoscopic brain Look at all these lines on your palms Criss cross criss cross As if someone slashed your palms with a knife Here, look at mine So smooth Hardly any lines I pour out the paints Drown my palms in the viscosities No lines No more butchered palms Ek bandh kamre ne Mujhe mere wajood se mila diya
Dr. Semeen Ali has a Ph.D. in English Literature from University of Delhi. She has four books of poetry to her credit. Her works have featured in several national and international journals as well as anthologies. She has co-edited four anthologies of poetry/prose that have been published nationally and internationally. Apart from reviewing books for prestigious journals, she is the Poetry editor for the literary journal Muse India and Editor for Opinion pieces (Cultural) as well as Co-Editor (Book Reviews and Translations) for literary journal Parcham. She is on the Council Board for the Literary Arts Council, Women’s Indian Chamber of Commerce and Industry (WICCI) for the year 2022-23. Website: https://www.semeenali.com/